Songs of Is quisnam est lupus animi

This post wont have anything to do with wolf RP so feel free to read if you care.

Last night I had a crazy ass nightmare that just thinking about is giving me the willies :/ I drempt that I was sleeping in my brothers room at my parents house with Zev. Zev was faced away from me, his back toward me and when I woke up I was like freaking out. I looked over by the door and saw a shadow streching up the wall. The shadow was of a tall man, litterally like, all legs with a tophat and a cane (totally uncle sam looking) In the dream I started remembering stuff I had read on facebook (i dont know why it was facebook) but someone had posted something about the "Tall Man" being in their house tormenting their kid. It was weird. Well I opend my eyes again (in the dream) and the shadow had shifted to being right infront of me and it was looking at me. I freaked out and woke myself up for real by gasping in fear. I was shaking and sweating.. totally freaking out trying not to look at the walls in Zev's room. Zev was laying the same way he was in my dream. I dont know why, maybe it was instinct or just human nature but I felt an unbearable -need- not want, -need- to be in his arms. So I forced him to roll over and I curled up on his chest (zev is a heavy sleeper lol) but he put his arms around me and I instantly felt better but I was still so freaked out I couldnt fall back asleep for nearly an hour.

Weird huh?

Im curious. When I don't like someone I tend to remove them from any friends list and pretty much all together avoid them. Am I wrong? At what point did disliking someone account for -adding- someone to your friends list and going out of your way to add someone somewhere? So I gave out my LJ info on the pack channel and got a bunch of adds. One was from Nesche. I recognized the name but didn't think to much on it. The journal had nothing on it so I figured it was just one of my members under a different name. Then, I swear to god like a sack of rocks it hit me. I know where I knew the name from. Its She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named's friend Stephany. I personally have never had a problem with the chick, except that it was annoying that she would join the pack, show up once or twice and then poof into oblivion just to show up some weeks/months later under a different name. Other then that, Seriously, I barely know the girl. Well when I had asked other earlier if they knew who Nesche is on LiveJournal someone had pointed me to a Deviantart account. I went threw my logs to find the DA account mostly to confirm that its the right person and sure as shit she was talking to Moonweaver and I see posts like this:

_{Honestly, just ignore Shiiake/Shiake (shit I don't pay enough attention to her to know which it is... ).
:I Completely ignore her; the only way to end this fuming shit of a bitch-fest is to just end it by getting the last laugh. Don't remove her from your friends list, or anything like that, just ignore her. Let her watch our pack flourish when hers falls just like we know it will. She will get nowhere with this "I rule all; obey my rules or get the fuck out" kind of attitude. We both know the obvious. Let her watch us and ignore ANYTHING she says. It just says that you're fucking done with her shit.}


Really?! WTF DID I DO TO HER!? The way to end the "fuming shit of a bitch-fest" is to PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF MY ASS AND DONT INVOLVE YOURSELF IN SHIT THAT DOESNT INVOLVE YOU! Freaking A you people are so freaking ignorant it hurts and again with you people and the "Your way wont work" crap ~ Are you fucking blind? I mean I thought She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named was talking out of her ass when she was talking about the health of SB but Stephany? WTF?! This chick is never even around the pack to know wtf is going on e.e she might as well paint a face on her butt and just use farting as means of talking cause thats about the equivilat to what she is doing. I dont know which pack these people are looking at but SweetBreeze is doing just fine. We are happy, active, bonded, and all around in good health even with the Holidays. So seriously why dont you all worry about your own packs. I sorta figured She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named would create another pack somewhere but I dont really care either way. If it survives, cool, if not, whatever, it has no effect on me. Im not going to watch you dolts do anything e.e because I dont like you and thus ignore you completely, yet while your there talking shit about me you add me to LiveJournal ?? Wtf? My guess is like She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, Stephany added me just so she can keep up with the things that I say which to me is like "Looking for drama much?" you know you dont like me nor the things I have to say so why would you go out of your way to see those things? e.e Jesus.

Next what the fuck is with people trying to discourage people from my pack?! Here I am being a GOOD alpha, encouraging my wolves to get out there and see other packs and you guys have to say stupid shit? My wolves ask about other packs, this is what I say

LoreWeavers - Honestly I have not spent much time there so I have nothing to say.
SilverNights - Hardcore realism, no talking
Soulwolves - Different roleplay style - tend to do sentences not paragraphs (not a bad thing, just possibly something they are not use to)
SilverMists - As far as I have seen from visiting - no one is there but check it out
WolfSpirits - Awsome, active for the most part

Its funny though, Most alphas discourage their members and even new people from checking out other packs. They fail to mention that there are other packs out there or do not permit wolves to stray from their channels. Its very sad really.

<3 I love Wolf RP. Keep it coming guys. I could use more laughs <3

 

So funny story. I was apparently uninformed that Hunter and I are no longer friends o.o She broke the rules, I banned her from the SB channels ( not like thats a big deal as its usually -me- visiting -her- ) Then she goes and writes a BIG LJ about how my style of leading is bad and will lead to disharmony. You do what you want in your pack, ill do what I want in mine. If I have a problem with someone I will tell whoever I want. Jezabell broke the rules and her emo attitude annoys people. No one is just agreeing with me, we talked to her the night before the incident about now her constant OMG THE WORLD IS ENDING attitude was getting annoying. There is no disharmony within my pack, thanks for the concern though. So then the conversation went way in a new direction about how the age of a character effects their ability to roleplay with the pack. Like with the talking thing, when Azarra came in and said her character was Telepathic and I was like "well duh we all are" and others were like "no we really talk" it came to our attention that there was some confusion on the matter so we took it to Council and discussed it and came to a group conclusion that all speaking between wolves is telepathic. Same with the age thing. It was firmly decided that no wolf that is a member of SB may exceed 9 years of age. No you dont need to kill the character- you must simply play a new one. Then the topic came up with Tsume about if he was still aloud to visit dispite the obnoxiously unrealistic age in which he wanted his character to live. At the time I said no, mostly because it was Tsume and mostly because that would make sense, but again since the topic came up, I took it to Council. We decided that you CAN visit after age 9 but like if you visit past age 6, our elder rules apply. You may not hunt/spar with the pack. So now apparently I was suppose to go farther then putting it in the topic but now apparently I was suppose to run around informing all the elder members of SB (no matter how often they visit SB) that they are able to roleplay with us. "I thought we were friends why didnt you tell me?" Because you hardly visit anyway so why bother? Kovo is my friend and i didnt run around trying to tell her, or Silverlune or any other elder wolves. Sorry your not special. e.e If one of the people that CONSTANTLY visit SB was an elder then sure I would have made an effort to tell them but since my elderly wolfen friends are infrequent visitors I didn't see a point. Sorry. Now apparently I am a bitch and  liar and I need to disban SB so I can be just like Shoga :D I love when people have nothing else to say to defend themselves so they resort to pointing fingers and finding a different topic but it was also nice to get a complement, I apparently am just like Shoga! Sweet! I always wanted to be a good alpha. Sure I have my faults but no ones perfect, not even those on their high horses that see fit to talk about how other packs ways are wrong :x even those mighty beings have faults :O *GASP* <3 I love wolf roleplay drama <3

I am Shitler!!! Hear me rawr!!!! I rule my pack with an Iron paw and whip!!! Looook in to my eyes so I can brainwash you into being my minion!!!!!! Everywolf generously apply chapstick while I assume the position for you all to kiss my fluffy white butt!!! *Offers some extra chapstick to Chandler* You get extra :D Bow down to me or OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!! (or into the oven, depends on my mood)

[ Life ]
Kinda slow at this point. Settling into a sorta routine that is good but I don't like constants, I get bored. Pretty much the only exciting life thing thats going on right now is Zev's brother and sister in law are moving in and doing all kinds of shit to the house. Ripping out floors, painting walls, they got maid people to come and clean the house, the front trees are all bare and trimmed and all kinds of stuff like that. Zev and I had to move a shit ton of boxes from various places around the house to the Purple room (walls are purple) which is usually where our little kitchen is. So we had to reposition shit, add the boxes, tredmill and 3 book cases. The book cases dont really hold books (only one really does) The other two were just holding all our little trinkets. I have to say, when we move out we may not have any furniture but we have the decoration front covered! Our place is going to be all Indian/Wolf/Dragon-ed out hahahhaha. We are making plans to re-arrange our room as well. We finally got rid of his dragon, one of the other petco managers adopted him :3 So now we have alot of room to manipulate withouth aving to deal with the 50 gallon terrium (sp?)

Other then that Ive just been getting a little bummed due to how little time Zev and I have together anymore. With his new job he is working normal hours, Like 12pm - 8pm around there and so by the time he gets home, I go to school e.e So yeah it was super cute he took me to olive garden last night just because. He is sweet. He told me "Today is your day, what do you want to do?" :3 We were also going to go to the movies but decided to just go to blockbuster and sign up for the $20 a month plan that will allow us to rent 1 game/movie at a time and keep it as long as we want. So instead of spending money going to the movies we are just bringing them home. Its really nice, we eat dinner and watch movies :D

Ive sorta been playing with fire.. I wanted to drop off some books for Nancy (anthony's mom) but the only day she was going to be home was Monday. Well last I knew Anthony had mondays off so I texted him and asked "Do you still have mondays off? I wanted to drop off books for your mom" he said "No im working 6 days a week now but ill make sure the door is unlocked for you" From there Normally I would have left it be but we just sorta started bullshitting and catching up via text. He stopped responding at one point and I didn't push it. The next day I went over and his mom was still passed out so I texted him and asked him to let her know where I put the books. He said sure and again we just sorta started bullshitting back and forth the rest of the night - but again at one point he just stopped responding. Its nice to be talking to him again but I know when you play with fire your likely to get burnt e.e When Zev came home the other day I just sorta blurted out to him that Ive been talking to Anthony, mostly because not telling him made me feel like I was hiding it from him, which I didn't want to. He isn't thrilled but he doesn't seem to be stopping me. I don't think much more will come of it. I doubt he would text me without me texting him first so. Whatever. Our next convo will probably take place after Nancy finishes the 12 book series I gave her.

[ School ]
I took that stupid test finally on thursday, I got a 78% on it which is good enough for me in regards to that class and seeing as I only had 3 days to study for a 70+ term test in which the material we covered all the way at the beginning of the semester while trying to study for my math test. The only reason I went to class on monday was to get my test results just to find out that the teacher didnt bring them - go figure. I pretty much dont have class at all this week for reviews and the finals start next week. Im anxious for this semester to be over and be able to have a bit of down time from teachers and assignments and the like. I got better schedule for next semester, all my classes are from like noon - 3pm so Ill be able to get online at night and be able to spend time with Zev :D

[ Pack ]
Im on and off. If I know I wont be on for long I usually just check out things threw the bot rather then loading IRC, joining the channels, identifying blahblahblah. Thunder left the pack because I "attacked" him. He was all upset that he missed the meeting and I told him "Well its not like you would have been promoted anyway. You havent been here" That set him off and he was making excuses about how we are just not on at the same time and timezones blahblahblah. I told him that im on often but I may not be under my name I may be just watching threw the bot to see how the mice play when the cat's away. Anyway Rob told him off after I did and so he left the pack *Shrug* whatever. Like I told them at the meeting - They can slack off all they want till after the holidays. After that though - the bitch is back and there is going to be some reforming done. Bans/Kicks/Demotions. Whatever it takes to kick their asses in gear.

It all started on Tuesday. I have the same teacher for two of my management classes, one being MGT 201 and the other being Leadership. This teacher is really old. Like we are talking i think she might have actually had a dinosaur as a pet at some point in her life. Well at the beginning of the semester I was having a lot of problems with my car, I put it into the shop one day and they had to keep it overnight. So I called the teacher and told her I was not going to make it to class and asked what I was going to miss. She said they were just taking notes on chapters blank & blank and that I can get it from another student upon returning to class. So whatever, I missed class and came in the next class and they were taking a test!! She had given out the review for the test on the day I was absent and didn't tell me!!!!!! I reminded her of it and she kindly agreed to give me the study guide and allowed me to take the test later that week. So I scribbled the study guide onto a scratch piece of paper after getting it from another classmate, studied and took the test the following week before class. A few days later a fellow student asked me "How did you do on the matching portion of the test" I blinked stupidly at him and told him I didnt do any matching... I told this to the teacher and we come to find out that she gave me the wrong bloody test.... So now I have to take it -again- The first 6 chapters and we are on chapter 26 -_- Jesus. Okay whatever I thought it was slightly ass-nine but I agreed to retake it. I asked her for the study guide as I was under the impression I was only going to take the test once and threw the guide out since it was on scratch paper. She got all huffy and puffy with me and said "we will talk about it after class" So, after class i get in line with my fellow students and out of about 10 I was third in line. She pushed me to the side and took care of like the first 8 of them and I got fed up and cut some poor kid off and was like "My ride is waiting, I really need to go." So she started on about how I should still have the study guide or get it from another student (This is the tues. before thanksgiving. The class the test is for isnt until thursday, and thursday was thanksgiving so no class so i would have to wait a week and a half to get the study guide from another student, when the makeup test is next tuesday.. two days BEFORE i would attend the class its inteded for.. so thus there is no reasonable way for me to aquire it from a fellow student in that class in due time) When I calmly explained this to her she said, and I quote "Its remarkable how unprepared for college you young kids are" and when I told her if its that big of a deal then I will try and get it somehow without her help and mentioned that I wasnt prepared to take the same test twice because I expected her to have given me the correct test the first time -_- She said "Nono, dont worry, Ill get the study guide for you, I dont think your responcible enough to aquire it for yourself and Ill take all the responcibility since you wont take any." By now I am about to flip. Who the fuck is this bitch to tell me I am unprepaired for college (that ive been doing since my jr year of highschool) when I have a fucking 3.6 GPA and Im obviously credible enough to have been hired by the school to take notes for someone in that very same class with a disabilty. So her saying im not "responsible" enough to do my own shit just set me off. I got out of there before I lost it on her. I am going to write a formal letter of complaint to her management about her discriminating against me due to my age and that I am fearful that this will show in my ending grade for the class.

Onto Wend. I was expecting to spend a lazy day with Zev, being the day before thanksgiving I did not have class as many would be going out of town for the holidays. Well about 10am Lee (zevs brother in law) came over with the boys. (9 & 10) and asked if we would mind watching them for a few hours, he could take them to work with him and set them up with a movie and some video games but the house was on his way there so he decided to stop by and ask. Zev didnt even consult me before agreeing to it... which im sure he thought i wouldnt have cared... but that sorta irked me. We ended up playing castle crashers for like.... 4 hours. e.e I had such a headache by the time they left. They are good boys but I wasnt exactly planning on babysitting... especially while trying to sign up for next semesters classes - which is hard a s hell because they dont organize shit on my schools website and there are like 5497594489327 campus' e.e so you cant find shit.

Thursday was thanksgiving. We went over to my Nana & Papa's for Thanksgiving "lunch" because they are weird and dinner is at like 3pm for them. So we did that which is oh so joyful. My mom and dad pretending they still love each other. Nana yelling at everyone. My aunt is a lazy bitch who tells her boyfriend or my cousin to do everything she is told to do, My cousin yells back at her, and papa is deaf so he has the tv up so loud everyone is yelling to be heard over it. My parents brought my two dogs, Jagel brought his stupid yappy fucking winnie dog Ginger who likes to be wherever your placing your feet at the time and My cousin brought her Cavalier, Noel. Well Noel is afraid of Aba, Aba will eat Ginger if she goes anywhere near her and ginger likes to hump my male yorkie... so everyone is always yelling at me and my cousin to seperate the dogs. So yeah that was pleasent. I tried telling my aunt that she needs to fix Noel but she says she wants to breed her LMAO - Dee flipped about having ONE puppy running around peeing/chewing/barking/digging. I sat there and told her 1- Now in the state of Nevada you have to have a breeders license in order to breed your dog. 2- she will have to pay to have all the pups first rounds of shots and any medical concerns berfore they are 8 weeks old 3- god forbid any of the pups dont suckle and someone has to bottle feed them. and the list went on and on and on and she pretty much blew me off. She is a fucking idiot. They dont have enough time for one dog, let alone puppies. They got Noel blindly they knew nothing of the breed and have no idea what they got themselves into. Its assholes like them that are the reason 95% of dogs are in shelters. Anyway, that was oh-so-joyful e.e at about 5 we had to leave to be able to go down to Zev's sister's house for Thanksgiving "dinner" with his family. We were pretty much so exhausted, that one was uneventful for the most part and we came home and crashed.

Friday my mom asked if Zev and I wanted to go to the Shark Reef at the mandalay bay. I asked Zev and he agreed so we were going to meet there about 7. I got off work at 6, my mom text me when I am walking threw the door at 6:15 saying "When are you leaving dad is getting antsy" So i like rushed Zev outta the house and we drove like assholes to get there on time. We get there and i text my mom asking her where they were and she was like "Oh well we had to go to blockbuster and trader joes first, we are just getting on the freeway now." e.e I was like "well that would have been dandy to know before rushing Zev out of the house" She called me and said we wouldnt have to wait long THEN informed me that we were meeting at a sushi restarunt cause they hadnt eatten yet... well Zev doesnt do fish... great. So its already an hour from our bedtime and now we have to sit threw dinner and then the reef e.e So we get there - and also find out that the restarunt serves nothing but fish... so we walked around looking for something for Zev until my parents showed up and then we sat and ate till 9. The reef closes at 10... so we get to the reef and there is a big ol sign that says "Last tickets sold an hour before close" It was 9:15 So no reef for us... i felt so bad. Zev drove down the strip (one of his greatest loaths) to go to the reef but instead just sorta sat around while we had sushi and then drove home e.e

Saturday did nothing to improve my mood. My period hit me like a freight train. Not to mention that at the store i work at saturday mornings, they have started inforcing the two rep at a time rule. Meaning only two reps can be in the store at once. which is understandable seeing as how that store can have up to 6 reps at any given time. So it was me and Nutro. First they had us set up infront of our endcaps, then moved us to the opposite side on the random-shit endcaps now they want us in the isles - which is dumb because everyones tables are hella long, so if we scoot one way we are justting out into the isle, the other way we are covering product (thus why they moved us into the isles as to not cover the product on the endcaps) So that annoyed me, then around noon Science diet shows up and one of the managers comes up and looks at me and Nutro saying "two reps at a time, one of you has to go" i laughed at him and said that me and nutro were here first - and his responce was "well she called in and said she would be here.." I laughed again and reminded him that Nutro puts in their schedules a month ahead of time and I have been at that store, every saturday from 10am to 2pm for the last 10 months. He said we could all stay but next weekend we have to call in. -_- Which is equally as dumb because im going to call and get Jeff and say "hey ill be there sat. 10-2" he will say okay. Nutro will call and get one of the other 6 managers and say "hey ill b3e there sat 10-2" he will say okay. Then Sciencediet will call and get another manager and say "hey ill be there sat 10-2" he will say okay. Not like the fucking managers over there corrilate whats going on so we will just have the same problem. Not to mention that the adoptions there push BLUE and Nutro so you would think we would hold priority. Guess not. I will be pissed if I have to start loosing hours or whole shifts because someone eles "called in" before me. - This added to the fact that i found out that they are not giving Zev his hours for next week (the end of his two week notice is next thursday) meaning we are going to be short a check - pissed me off.

It didnt get much better when I got home to find Shimon (zevs brother) and his wife were over and they were discussing how they were going to move in next month which is fine and dandy, I like them they are nice people but they have alot of shit... Me and Zev just organized everything so that we have our room, the black room and the purple room. the black room has all our junk (books etc) and the purple room has all of our kitchen stuff (to avoid the kosher kitchen) Shimon has like... 7 computers and for some reason needs ALL of them. e.e not to mention there 6 sofas and 3 tvs and blahblahblah. SO they were talking about taking over the den, the black room and the purple room, knocking down the garage door, making it into a room and adding a door and making that mine and Zevs storage place -_- it was just alot of crap and its just sorta like... well.... we were here first <<: Put all your shit in storage... they arent moving in cause they are financially unstable they just dont like their apt complex. Zev and i should be able to move out between feb and april but thats still an IF with alot of dependables e.e So that annoyed me slighty.

Then at my Second shift that day a pittbull puppy jumped up and hit my nail just right with his head that it ripped off the acrilic on my pinky nail along with some of my natural nail. It hurt like a bitch so now the nail is half ripped off but i cant rip off the rest cause its like halfway down my finger. So now its all ghetto rigged with tape due to my allergy to bandaids and its uncomfortable and sore.

This all added to the fact that im still on a shit ton of meds that are making me rediculously sleepy and giving me some wild ass dreams - not all good. Has made me incredibly irritable. I have a doc appointment tommorrow... bleh. Hopefully with this week being over- Next will not be so retardedly lame.

I have had no time whatso ever for the pack. I come home late at night and check whats happend on the bot and really I am annoyed. For the most part everyone sits around and bullshitsl A few are very active and i appreciate that but there is so much just... bullshit going on in the OOC chan with kids coming in with their emo OMG MY WORLD IS ENDING drama Im just loosing my nerve. After redoing all the pack tags i had lost some of the wolf images/ misplaced them in the move from computer to external harddrive back to computer. 3 members threw fits about how their pictures are not on the website and they feel unappreciated and unloved because of it. All three of them are also wolves that are rarely on so im alreayd not exactly thrilled with them, Hopefully with winter break coming up and a better planned school schedule ill have more time for the pack, but shits going to change and the emo flipouts in my channels are going to stop.

Okay... managed all of that in an hour - im going to bed now.

My head is a fun place let me tell you...
... Seriously this is day like 5 of weird ass dreams - Maybe its the meds im on... but it needs to stop.

Still feel like shit.
My symptoms have worsened to more flu-like. My everything hurts.
I need to get better by this weekend... or I fear I won't be able to work. Id go with a gunshot wound and a broken limb but not without my voice. My job is to -talk- to people. I cant show up to work with a whiteboard that says "Blue is awsome - Try it!" e.e So I hope I at least get my voice back by friday.

Now for the only bit of good news I have to report - Zev got the job at Petco! In two weeks he will be the new inventory manager!!! Im so happy and proud of him! I am almost afraid to say anything because I don't want to get ahead of myself, but if Zev gets some decent hours and the pay he requested, we should be able to get an apartment!!! We will still need a room mate, but Hogan says he is all on board for it! Also, Zev and I were talking about getting a pet, and how much I wanted one. We cant get a cat or a dog due to the stupid bunnies (not cool bunnies, outdoor bunnies that dont like cuddles :( ) We were thinking of something small. I said rats, but he knows the reaction I have to rats ... so he said no. I dont like hampsters and other little furry rodents put me in the E.R with their dander. So we started talking chinchillas!!! So we might get one *does a boogie* I want a baby one though, so we can properly socialize it! I donno we will see, we have to get rid of his bearded dragon first.

Thats all to report.
Be well and blessed be

Bleh, I looked at the time and realized the date, Today would have been mine and Anthony's 6 year anniversary. Part of me wonders if he realizes it, or even cares. Doubt it. I have been talking to my long time friend Jessica recently and really come to understand alot of my feelings on this topic. I don't miss Anthony, I miss the idea of him, the familiarity. We have been friends for so long that I just always thought that he would be apart of my life. Maybe a distant part, but apart of it at any time. I have been tempted alot in the last few weeks to contact him further then what was necessary. Perhaps try and make small talk and catch up, but I know its better for both of us this way. I cant stand to see the way he is now because I know he can/is better then what he is allowing himself to be. He doesn't know how to not hurt me and my expectations for him are too high and it just makes both our lives miserable. Ive stayed strong thus far, but I hate that it is even a temptation anymore. I know it is going to take some time to put some distance between the memories I have with him, which even the good ones are tainted. I know time will heal things but I wish it would be faster.

Well moving past that and onto reasons to be happy Anthony is no longer apart of my life, Zev is so sweet. I haven't been feeling well all week and my back has been killing me. Friday when I got home from work, he turned the TV onto one of those tranquil music channels, and got out massage oils, and gave me a whole massage! I felt like jello after! Then today when I got home I just wanted something to stop the itching in my throat so I got Ice Cream - no the sugar isn't a good idea but I was in pain :( He came in the room while I was eating it and took it away!! I was like WTF?! He told me to stay and left the room and came back with Chicken noodle soup!!!! I love him so much, he takes such good care of me. I still haven't found any major faults in him... I still think he has to be an ex-con!

I feel like shit. Im getting sick :/ I have been feeling all weak and lethargic all week but then I think I may have over done it. Friday I was up all night trying to fix Zev's computer so it would play WOW, I got it working around midnight then layed down. The last time I looked at the clock it was almost 3:45am. Saturday morning I had to be up at 8am, worked two shifts then went babysitting till 1 am, got home about 1:40am-ish. The boys wore me out... Then yestarday I had to be up at 9am then worked another double. Ive been drinking a shit tone of water and orange juice, I swear Im going to start pissing vitemin C e.e I am going to go to the doctor today when Zev gets home.

Too Lazy for Pack updates, I havent had my comp and the external harddrive together in a while so I havent loaded the SB website pages to my laptop, thus the website is out of date - sad panda, Sorry guys. Other then that I know the pack has been doing amazing. I feel bad that I cant be there too often but once more - that was something the pack understood upon the recreation of SB. No one seems too upset by it, but I feel like poo. Hopefully Ill be back in action soon.